Although this article was written several years ago, I feel it is important to repost and review not only for my benefit but to give hope to others who are also striving to be consciously what they are spiritually. My lineage is one of healers. Although I was psychic and had visions as a young child and woman, my personal dream was to be a perfect vehicle, a transmitter, for the Holy Spirit, the Comforter. Most of us, including myself, assume the Holy Spirit is outside of us. In truth, it is our true life, an energy we have forgotten due to the demands of existing in density. In order for dreams to materialize or the power of the Holy Spirit, we are expected to be responsible and take action. No one else can create our passion for us.
I have always been a healthy woman with all that a normal soul would desire in life yet, I was not satisfied. When I was a young married woman and mother, Universal Studios offered me a contract. Other similar opportunities continually presented themselves as a divergence that tried to keep me from the inner knowing that held my attention. Although I did not have a clue, I realized there was something else I was to focus on. Country club living, traveling, a large number of good friends and the best of all, a good, loving and beautiful family were not enough. Something was lacking. I was outwardly living the normal human dream and I felt incomplete.
At the time, I did not understand the immensity of the inner landscape, the soul and light within. The real part of who I was continued to play hide and seek veiled by human flesh and the conditioning accumulated from birth. All I knew is that I seemingly had everything but there was much more to consciously remember, prepare and experience before I could feel fully alive. When we have a strong inner drive for something, regardless of what it is, the universe eventually will provide an opening. When the opening appears, it is our choice whether we walk through the door embracing the opportunity and consequently reaching a greater light of understanding and subsequent expansion of consciousness or simply ignore the invitation.
What happened to dramatically change my life and manifest my dream? It began with a choice. I chose to have minor surgery on my lower abdomen. A few days after returning home, I noticed the surgical area was swollen and red streaks were rapidly appearing. A fever quickly developed and the pain increased. This worsened in the morning. I had just given my newborn son his 10 AM feeding. I decided to lie down in the bed next to him because the pain and the infection were obviously worse. The sensible action was to call 911. I was alone except for the infant. Instead of calling an ambulance, I placed my hands on top of the infected bare skin and immediately fell unconscious. I knew the time because of the feeding schedule. I passed out. One hour later I awakened to a sticky substance spreading underneath my hands. Remember, the hands were placed over the infection. To my shock a higher power and presence had created two openings, one on each end of the six-inch length stitches. When I looked, the infection was draining without any human assistance; the red streaks, pain and fever had completely disappeared. I had chosen to surrender my physical life to a Higher Power and the result was an instant healing.
Being unconscious and alone for one hour was the first step in a journey that has been nonstop until this day. What I did not know at that moment was the secret passion to be a healer of bodies and souls combined with an intense faith in God would create a situation that would catapult me into a miraculous dream life right before my eyes. From that day forward, I was a very changed person. Please note that I do not recommend this type of surrender to any one. It worked for me as a result of pure intent, faith, preparation and a very deep love for truth.
I quickly discovered that simply by touching others, they could be healed of cataracts, ongoing spinal problems, cancer, carpal tunnel, multiple scoliosis, tumors, earthbound spirits and much more. I focus on the subject of healing in all of my books. The Holy Spirit lives as me, a messenger of Light ,to help people in body, mind and soul. I began to recall the ancient wisdom teachings; the Universal laws of spiritual living that awaken inner knowledge and heal the soul. Spending long hours in silent meditation, the teachings appeared in visions of Light, radiant words hanging in front of me in mid air and words softly suggested to my listening ear. I began to write inspirational messages easily and joyfully. I daily witness God’s radiant light and angelic beings. My life has been physically saved four times by angels. Living in amazement and gratitude, I know with all my heart and soul that the grace received from ongoing firsthand experiences originating in a higher reality, or plane of subtle spirit, are available to any soul who surrenders, loves God and asks to be in service to the Divine. My heart's intent to offer authentic service continues to manifest in a magical way.
Surrender is a conscious connection, an attitude taken when we make a decision not to cling to habits, conditioning, false teachings, fear or any object, person, geographical area, whatever that may be hindering our soul evolution. It is giving up what doesn’t work for not only our good but also the good of all for a new choice that will work. This is why I always place firsthand experience as the true teacher.
Everything I experience is shared in purity and love, discernment and wisdom. As a result of a one-hour transformation, I felt newly alive, fearless and full of hope with an opportunity to actively assist in the evolution of a greater humanity; I understood suffering as a severe spiritual identity problem that we alone have created. People for the most part have forgotten the inner power and the magnificence of their true identity as pure Light. The inner spark is a projection of the One Flame, the Power and Presence of our Creator ,that cannot be described. It can be felt, received, loved and shared. I call the step-by-step process falling in love with the Divine.
Friends and friends of friends asked me to form a study group, which I did. The study group led to a popular and local organization called the Circle of Light. I shared firsthand experiences and what I remembered about the higher worlds of Light and the messages imparted to me. People were healed, inspired, felt hope and subsequently changed. Some students have gratefully awakened to the realms of Light and experience similar moments of authentic understanding and beauty. During the years following a personal healing and transformation, I wrote my first book, which was alsocalled, Circle of Light. It will be republished this year, 2017.
Some people assume that once we are on the path of Light, unconditional love, truth and service that life will be easy. It was not easy. A divorce happened resulting in estrangement from family members and a few friends. A deep human loneliness would occasionally come over me although the circle of likeminded friends expanded. Through the pain, I developed a stronger sense of discernment, patience, compassion, and power. I learned through discipline how necessary it is to persist in a state of mind ruled by the heart as pure intent and remain grounded at the same time.
Regardless of the challenges that we are humanly passing through, we must remain focused on our ideal. When the spiritual senses are awakened, it is easier to flow through all the changes. When we are open to the Celestial planes of consciousness, angels and luminous beings keep us safe, comforted and offer guidance. We are the ones who must believe, keep balanced and take action regardless whether abuse is hurled at us, losses occur in material areas or someone attempts to deceive us. Guidance has always said, “Be strong and keep your focus”! Even though we reach one goal, it is not the end of our journey. We keep moving forward attaining higher levels of consciousness. Whenever we are willing to stretch, it takes effort, mistakes will be made, feelings hurt and losses occur. Saying all that, I would never change a moment of the evolving process.
As an author, teacher and healer, I kept busy traveling and offering workshops that would inspire, educate and heal. Then one day, I inwardly knew it was time to take time out. I gave up the popular organization to two bright women, said good-bye to a very active social life and resigned from a job as an administrator for a wonderful ballet school. During the seven-year absence from public life, I also was a willing caregiver at my mother’s side. It wasn’t until I returned to longer periods of meditative silence and deeper study, that I consciously understood that previously I had not been honoring my self. Too frequently, souls who love to help others, forget about their own needs and yes, the purpose of an incarnation. Even though I was heavily involved in service work, I had put another, higher and rare inner dream aside. The dream I am referring to has two parts: self-mastery and bringing into the flesh, emotions and mind the total fullness and light of the higher pure and true Self.
Perhaps, you have read of the masters who through discipline have transformed their bodies and lived long lives fully in control of every cell of the body, mind and soul. This does not happen through wishful thinking. The physical nervous system must be prepared for the type of transformation that I am talking about. I have had successful experiences controlling matter through intention. Why not control the cells? Why not bring the perfection that Jesus spoke of, ‘Ye are gods’, visibly and tangibly into the flesh, emotions and lower mind? To regain our original mastery and beauty, we must honor who we are on every level of our being. Remember, Jesus told us that we, too, could do what he did and more!
Many people, particularly women, have a problem with self-esteem. To honor who we are is to accept, know without any doubt, that we are a spirit, a radiant light, temporarily living in matter. With a passion, I know we can tangibly bring a deeper realization and perfection into the body, mind and activities. Intellectually, we may know this. The magic happens when we feel and believe it as our truth. Nature shows us how everything is intertwined. My dream is to prove that we are children of God , living flames of truth, and not groveling servants in the worst sense of the word. We are worthy!
During this period of intensity, love and service to family and self, I wrote 'Be-Embracing the Mystery'. When the manuscript was near completion, I intuitively knew it was time to return to teaching. Physically healing others was not to be the focus. I was to teach sincere students on how they could heal themselves and realize the power and presence hidden within them. Self-realization is the true healing.
As I mentioned before, the ideal does not end, only if you allow it to. A true passion for the good expands and reaches higher levels of creativity and joy. It is an ongoing journey. Everyone has a story to tell. The individual story cannot be separated from the collective story. We are all One. My story has as its foundation a personal connection with the Divine. The story of all souls is a spiritual liberation where we eventually go beyond the “closed structure” of the physical world.
An important step forward in not suppressing the eternal spirit, your true self, is to choose to make a commitment to seek, love and express the 'living light' as comfortably as you can here in matter. I know as a fact, if given a chance, human beings can be magnificent. To evolve, changes are required. Some of the changes may be uncomfortable. We can regenerate ourselves and joyfully transform the physical into the holy and infuse the holy into the mundane. Conscious thinking and action are required.
Believe in your self. Learn to love truth for its own sake. Allow your soul to BE. When you do, support will be offered and you will be able to move forward and manifest your dream. Fresh opportunities and new friends will appear in your life resulting in creating something good and beautiful for everyone who chooses to journey with you. Believe, dear friends, believe. The human experience is a means for the inner Self to express in matter. Anything is possible! Be true to your higher Nature. The truer you are, the happier you become. Our evolution is the greatest love story ever written. Why not write it in a new way?